...because it broke my heart seeing my dad's chipped tooth.



i promise to get all my A's.
i promise to try my best to fulfill my prayers 5 times a day.
i promise to end it with all my doas and surahs that i could actually remember
i promise to start reciting back and recall all my doas and surahs which ive known by heart but seemed to have forgotten.
i promise to stay away from all the negative influences that can be avoided.


dear god.
please, dont make my dad grow old.
please, tell him i love him.
please, tell him i love him.
please, tell him i love him.
please, tell him i love him.

:'( :'( :'(




maybe i really should start asking them to let me work on weekdays.
only then it gives me a reason, to not do some things.

...because it broke my heart seeing my dad's chipped tooth
...it really did.




i wish my name was YASMIN AHMAD.
it sounds right(?)
wait, i wish had YASMIN AHMAD's mind.



ASMIDA ITHNIN or just NURUL ASMIDA.
or maybe plain ASMIDA.
NURUL?


eons since anyone called me NURUL.
the last time i heard was from my primary 4 teacher, i think.



but why does it seems each time i look in the mirror,
i see NURUL staring back at me, and not ASMIDA.


...because NURUL never lies.
...because NURUL is the truth in me.


...because it broke my heart seeing my dad's chipped tooth .
..it really did.